Welcome back to life!

Hey World,

Sorry I've been a bit absent recently....If you follow me on Twitter, Facebook or subscribe to the business site, you know I've been crazy busy professionally, trying to juggle many projects and added responsibilities...

Still, that's no excuse..I feel kinda bad, because this entire year, NSpirit On Life has been either me venting to you or my excuses for why I've neglected this blog. I'm grateful for my loyal readers and subscribers. Thank you for sticking around.

So...what shall I discuss? Life's been nutz. There's a lot to talk about...I'll be back shortly with a more directed post--something dealing with some aspect of my life, your life or the world in general...Until later, take care & again, thanks for sticking around.

Sincerely,
NSpirit

http://twitter.com/FckYOUPayMi

That's it, that's right, it's business as usual, just another night...
On my Brown INK ish...about my BI - that's biz.
It's business as usual, feeling the need to change up the tweet.
I switched up the Twit game, @NSpiritSoJuicy is not the same...
Now, I'm gully - @FckYOUPayMi is the new Twitter name.

So here it goes: Once the trust is broken, it's hard to get it back. I can't represent wack niggas or chics, nawwww NSpirit don't get down like that. So, there it goes. If you're about your BI, then your girl will hold you down for sure. But if not, stay away -- don't come around any more. Keepin it 100 is best when it comes to me. I'm a real chic with no time to play. My life is about making love and making money, that means there's no time for games.

http://twitter.com/FckYOUPayMi
www.ThinkBrownINK.com

Top 10 Things you can do for me...

10. NOTHING.
But if you want to please me, okay there are 9 more things below.

9. ACT LIKE I DON'T EXIST.
No really. Trust, you'll do me less harm by not really acting like I'm here & guess what--I can do the same & we both win. But OK. If you still want to help me out, there are 8 more things below.

8. KICK ROCKS.
While you're kicking them, please take a picture so I can post it on here. That'll make my day.

7. KISS MY ASS.
Hmmm...chances are, you're a stalker, lurker, faker, broke dude or girl, someone who doesn't like me anyway & in that case you can KISS MY ASS. If you're none of the above, OK keep reading. I have more things that you can do below.

6. BUY ME ONE OF THOSE WINDOW AIR CONDITIONING UNITS.
I just moved into the new place and it has no freaking air. Like WTF? #WHERETHEYDOTHATAT? So yea, stop by Wal-Mart and get me an air conditioner & might pay you back if you ask nicely.

UMM...okay. Maybe you won't. So there are a few more things below that will really help me.

5. TELL A FRIEND TO TELL A FRIEND THAT I'M THE BEST PSYCHO GENIUS YOU KNOW.
Really, I am. I promise, and would I lie? My thought process is insanely brilliant.

4. HIRE ME.
Brown INK Communications in full effect. I know what you're probably thinking....She's a little off the hook & this marketing tactic might not be the best.
Well...if you feel that way, please refer to numbers 10 through 7. I'm the most creatively-diverse communicator you'll ever (or never) meet. LOL :-)

3. BOOKMARK www.ThinkBrownINK.com.
It'll be ready soon & there's a few exciting features that we're rolling out.

2. GIVE BACK TO YOUR COMMUNITY.
Really. I might be a Psycho-Genius-Communicating-Nutjob, but I'm a philanthropist at heart. Support AIDS Research, the United Way, education or a local church. Those are some of my favorite causes.

1. PRAY.
Pray for yourself. Pray for your family and all the homeless people. And, if you're no hater & you actually get a kick out of my random acts of fuckery, lift one up for me too. That is, if you can get over "Things 10-7"


Love ya,
Tash.

No More Mrs. Nice Natasha

Honestly, I'm done being nice to everyone, by default. What's the point? My siblings and friends have always told me that I need to stop being so sensitive, and I'm taking their advice. Sadly, the only way for me to do that is for me not to give a fuck about the average person anymore.

(I feel like I should share the kicker that set me off on this rant. But I know you won't understand. OK I'll try...after a weekend of several people being extremely fake in their ways, and a few discoveries :-)- instances of God putting me in the right places at the right times - tonight I was texting an old friend who happens to be somewhere that I'm not in the publishing field. He is supposed to be talking with me about next steps, helping me with the whole publishing process. We somehow began to talk about relationships, etc....& out of no where & after we already established that there would be nothing between us, he texts me & asks me to take off all my clothes and text him a naked picture of myself. Like WTF? I was pissed & I tried my hardest to keep it cordial, but it was hard. He's never seen a naked pic of me, & I was kinda shocked that he would even make such a request out of no where. It showed that he has no respect. So yes, there it goes...)

I'm a naturally generous person with a big heart, so yes - it'll be difficult, but I vow -- no more Mrs. Nice Natasha. She's gone. I think that I'm going to have the toughest time keeping my own desires under control. I tend to give other people too much in the process of satisfying my own cravings. Gotta stop that, because the average person doesn't deserve shit from me.

I'm too good for them.

Am I angry? No. I'm actually pretty happy that God continues to reveal so many truths about life, love, business, pleasure and people.

Dear God, I have to ask you to help me keep my fingertips under control, because when my book drops, you and I both know that I will have no mercy on the fake ones. Please help me spare those who have hated me.

Thank you.

P.S. - My birthday is coming up, and I expect nothing from no one on August 3. I don't need fake friends or frienamies. So please, stay far, far away on my favorite day.

Love,
NSpirit

Introducing Juicy Brownbombshell

She's fierce, sexy and sassier than your average dime. - Juicy Brownbombshell.

-Ms. Juicy


-Killer Kimono

-Selling Sex & Straw Hats

I've always talked about the many sides of me, but you rarely get to meet Juicy Brownbombshell. Well, here she is... If you follow me on other social networks or know me in real life, you know that Juicy is a metaphor to my life. I think, write, behave, dress in and -(yes it stays) JUICY down.

NSpirit has her weak moments, but Juicy B. is a fierce bitch, so I advise you not to fuck with her. ****ATTENTION LAMES**** no need to approach & if you're a hater, Juicy will detect it from a mile away! But no worries....She'll always blow you the juiciest of kisses. *muah*

-Yes I know I'm a mess, but fuck it! Aren't we all?

Putting the pieces back together

"Sometimes the pieces fall in place on their own. At other times, we must deliberately put them back together." -NSpirit On Life

My life is slowly but surely falling back into place. Yesterday was a good day. I had a meeting with the boss, and all is well. I'm hiring an intern and a few vendors (writing and design) to work with me on my 9 to 5. Seems I'm not going to be writing as much from now on - she wants me to manage all the development communication projects, instead of actually doing them myself. This is a good thing definitely, but it'll be hard for me to adapt at first. I grow personally attached to a lot of my projects, and I tend to want to create them myself, but I know that providing the instructions, directions, and then managing the production will allow me to accomplish much more, and in tern, help our staff raise more money for education.

Today I looked at an apartment. Need to move out of my current (rent-free) spot by August, and the place I looked at today definitely has potential. One of my best friends here in PA is going to be the only other tenant in the building which is a huge plus. I feel kind of funny about having to rent again, knowing that I own property. But my house is in Bmore, and a few friends are renting, and moving back to that city is not an option. I can't stand it there anymore. So...now, I'm just waiting on who I hope will be my new landlord to let me know if my two dogs, Honey & Minnie, can come too. If not, that will probably be a deal breaker.

I've been so consumed with the troubles in my personal life that I've put all things with building and re-branding my business, Brown INK, on hold. I have the new logo, but I still haven't begun working on the site or my new PR package, etc. That's my next mission.

I'm just glad the pieces are coming together again.

With the new season, I had to start new in so many areas of my life. It is a little stressful and heartbreaking at times, but I'm glad it's coming together. I'm still thanking God, while slowly putting the pieces back into place.

Ummmm, IDK about Joe Jackson...

??? Michael Jackson's father, Joe Jackson is still a little 'Off the Wall.' Here's the video of him on the red carpet at the BET Awards last week. I missed this part of the show the first time and must give props to Haziq for posting it first on his blog.

Thanking God

I have to thank God for this lesson
I have to thank you, God, for this pain
Realizing that with you, God, soon it will all be back to the same
The same, regular me, Natasha T. "[N]Spirit" Brown, smiling and happy
Knowing that some things I will never get back--but my heart--I know, it's still in tact.
My spirit still gentle, warm, kind and generous
But my heart and mind just a little colder to protect me from these things and people who are envious

I have to thank you, God, for the pain
For giving me strength to pray and have faith that it will all be back to the same
The same, back to the way I use to be, a happy person, tough as steel, emotions under control like the way you made me.
I may still cry- yes -but until the last tear has fallen, God, I know it has all been just a test
A test to prepare me for the next
A test to make me realize I'm truly blessed
These setbacks are just that: necessary to prepare me for the rest

I'm hurting so bad right now, you know
But I'm thanking you for whispering in my ear, "This too shall pass."
And now, I know
My spirit will be the same
I'm thanking you God for rescuing me every time I call out your name.

Written on 6/28/09

My thoughts on June 25 after hearing of Michael's Death.

I published these thoughts about Michael on my Twitter page. Here they are, unedited.



OMFG Michael Jackson is dead. http://www.tmz.com/ Oh no. Rest in Peace....wow.
5:51 PM Jun 25th from web

THIS IS SOOOOOO SAD. ARE YOU KIDDING. I'M BLOWN. MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD HE WAS ONLY 50. THIS IS CRAZY. OMG. http://www.tmz.com/
5:52 PM Jun 25th from web

They say death comes in threes. First Ed McMahon, then Farrah Faucette & now Michael Jackson. This is crazy.
5:56 PM Jun 25th from web

Fox News says "rushed to the hospital." http://www.foxnews.com/ What's really good?
6:02 PM Jun 25th from web

The CNN story was updated 7 minutes ago. Why aren't they saying Michael Jackson is dead? OMG what's really good? http://tiny.cc/SuK2Y
5:58 PM Jun 25th from web

MSNBC says "rushed to the hospital." http://bit.ly/oR4Ih
6:01 PM Jun 25th from web

I am so sad. God please bless Michael Jackson's children and family. He inspired so many of us. This is a tragedy.
6:11 PM Jun 25th from web

Waiting on CNN, MSNBC, Fox News - Michael Jackson is a legend. Please fight Mike!!!!!!
6:21 PM Jun 25th from web

CNN says they confirmed he is in coma. LA Times says that Michael Jackson is dead. He was rushed to UCLA Medical Center.
6:30 PM Jun 25th from web

TWITTER IS FROZEN. NO UPDATES COMING THROUGH. Michael we love you!!!!!!! He is a legend - the best performer that ever lived!!!!
6:38 PM Jun 25th from web

WE LOVE YOU MICHAEL!!!!! *MUAH* & MY PRAYERS GO OUT TO UR CHILDREN & FAMILY * I'M SO SAD* I HOPE THESE REPORTS ARE UNTRUE. I'M IN DENIAL.
about 24 hours ago from web

"I'm talking to the man in the mirror. I'm asking you to change your ways."-Michael Jackson
about 24 hours ago from web

"Another day has gone, I'm still all alone, How could this be, You're not here with me" -Michael Jackson, You Are Not Alone
about 24 hours ago from web

"You never said goodbye, Someone tell me why, Did you have to go And leave my world so cold..." - Michael Jackson, You Are Not Alone
about 24 hours ago from web

Everyday I sit and ask myself How did love slip away Something whispers in my ear and says
about 24 hours ago from web

Michael Jackson was 'amazing.' That's the only word that can truly capture his greatness. A legend. We all must show respect. We love u!!
about 24 hours ago from web

Where are my PYTs????? In honor of Michael J. We must shout u out!!! @BaddBrwnBodToya @LGDaGreat @HisNum1Scholar @TinkaMarie <----WeLuvUMike
about 24 hours ago from web

"It doesn't matter if you're black or white." - Michael Jackson
about 23 hours ago from web

"She got a darkskin friend that look like Michael Jackson." -Jaime Foxx *tehe*
about 23 hours ago from web

"She's just a girl who thinks that I am the one...." -Michael Jackson
about 23 hours ago from web

"Heal the World.. make it a better place.. for you and for me..(for the entire human race)...RT @Lizzs_Lockeroom
about 23 hours ago from web

Like really, I know MJ Fans all over the world are going nutz. He was so amazing. It's hard to believe he's gone. I grew up 2 him & Janet.
about 23 hours ago from web

"There are people dying. If you care enough for the living, make a better place for you and for me." -Michael Jackson "Heal the World"
about 23 hours ago from web

"There are people dying. If you care enough for the living, make a better place for you and for me." -Michael Jackson "Heal the World"
about 23 hours ago from web

"We are the world." -Michael Jackson
about 23 hours ago from web

"There are people dying. If you care enough for the living, make a better place for you and for me." -Michael Jackson "Heal the World"
about 23 hours ago from web

Death should make us embrace life & our loved ones who are living. Let's not wait until they are dead to honor their life.RIP MichaelJackson
about 23 hours ago from web

CNN just brought up a good point. MJ represented all that was positive in music. He didnt disrespect women, curse or highlight the negative.
about 23 hours ago from web

When we say Michael Jackson, we think of Motown USA, Thriller, Bad, Barry Gordy, Scream Tour, Moonwalking- He was amazing. Respect his life.
about 23 hours ago from web

...The Jackson 5, Man in the Mirror, Thriller, Beat It, Billie Jean....he was an icon...can't believe my kids won't get to see him perform.
about 23 hours ago from web

RT @flyguytray RIP to everyone who lost someone this year... FTR the death of MJ is no greater than the life of ur loved one<-----True.
about 22 hours ago from web

ATTENTION TO THE FOLLOWER WHO KEEPS ASKING ME TO RETWEET "follow me" NO. STOP FUCKIN BLOWIN ME OR I WILL UNFOLLOW YOU NOW!!!
about 22 hours ago from web

"We are the world." -Michael Jackson
about 22 hours ago from web

"Death should make us embrace life & our loved ones who are living. Let's not wait until they are dead 2 honor their lives."-NSpirit On Life
about 22 hours ago from web

Think of all your fav. entertainers and ask yourself if they were influenced by Michael Jackson? Bey, Usher, Ciara, Chris Brown, Mary J...
about 22 hours ago from web

...Janet Jackson, Missy,Timbaland, Aaliyah...etc etc etc etc etc etc etc - Michael Jackson was & always will b an icon. May u rest in peace.
about 22 hours ago from web

I'm not gonna sleep tonight. We should make this a 24/hour Twit cycle - live & poppin, in honor of Michael Jackson.
about 22 hours ago from web

"Death should make us embrace life & our loved ones who are living. Let's not wait until they are dead 2 honor their lives."-NSpirit On Life
about 22 hours ago from web

"I remember the time, when we fell in love. I remember the time, when we first met." -Michael Jackson.
about 22 hours ago from web

"Do you remember us holding hands in each other's eyes we'd stare..." -Michael Jackson, Remember the Time, dedicated to you xoxoxo
about 22 hours ago from web

"Do you remember those special times, they'll just go on and on iIn the back of my mind..." - Michael Jackson, Remember the Time
about 22 hours ago from web

"Those sweet memories will always b dear 2 me & [boy] nomatter what was said I will never forget what we had now baby"-MJ Remember the Time
about 22 hours ago from web

Left work, lit a black & as my brain started to clear from all my projects, it sunk in forreal. Michael Jackson is dead.
about 22 hours ago from UberTwitter

RT @musicologist012 Michael Jackson saved the Music Industry in 1983! ...he saved music!...Celebrate his legacy & the path that he has made
about 21 hours ago from UberTwitter

The great die young.
about 21 hours ago from UberTwitter

Truly an unprecedented day.Tx every1 4 the MJ RTs.Still stunned.Thinkin about all my loves-fam & friends.Death makes me feel somekind of way
about 20 hours ago from UberTwitter

"Death should make us embrace life & our loved ones who are living. Let's not wait until they are dead 2 honor their lives."-NSpirit On Life
about 20 hours ago from UberTwitter

"Leave me alone." -Michael Jackson.... RIP
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

Heal the World is on. This video, this song, is so touching...I am glad Michael Jackson will finally have peace; he did so much 4 the world.
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

Quick question: Why were yall following @PerezHilton in the 1st place. He's a Grade A hater. Now, bac 2 my nightlong tribute... RIP MJ
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

& jus 4 the record...Michael Jackson died 2day. Um, so who cares about ur mixtape, ur new single, Perez Hilton or tht crzy couple wit 8 kids
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

RT @mrsnasirjones @NSpirit PREACH BABY!!! WHO GIVES A GOTDAM BOUT THAT OTHER SHIT, OUR KING IS GONE<-my pt exactly. I'm on an unfollow spree
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

Michael Jackson, u deserve ur props. You were amazing. Like really. A prodigy by 6 yrs old, Thriller 20X platinum. An icon-BAD....RIP MJ
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

Wow..Thanks everyone 4 ur RTs. Its true. PPL are OC on Twitter & the shameless self promo 4 a bunch of wak ass rappers is disgusting. RIP MJ
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

"I'm tired of being a victim of shame. They throwin me in a class with a bad name"-Michael Jackson
about 19 hours ago from UberTwitter

RIP Michael. I love you. No entertainer will ever come close...

Michael Jackson, we love you. May you finally have peace.

Michael Jackson died yesterday. Forgive me for not feeling too creative, but I'm still kinda shocked by the news. Michael touched so many lives, mine included. Thriller made my siblings and I scared of the dark. Watching the young Michael sing his heart out at just 6-years-old made me believe as a kid that I could do anything.

As we got older, it saddened me that his life became so tragic. As he grew to be our icon, the greatest performer of our time, so did his angst and anxiety. All I can say is that I'm glad that he'll finally have peace.

Sincerely, me. Michael, may you rest in peace.

We will always love you.