Thanking God

I have to thank God for this lesson
I have to thank you, God, for this pain
Realizing that with you, God, soon it will all be back to the same
The same, regular me, Natasha T. "[N]Spirit" Brown, smiling and happy
Knowing that some things I will never get back--but my heart--I know, it's still in tact.
My spirit still gentle, warm, kind and generous
But my heart and mind just a little colder to protect me from these things and people who are envious

I have to thank you, God, for the pain
For giving me strength to pray and have faith that it will all be back to the same
The same, back to the way I use to be, a happy person, tough as steel, emotions under control like the way you made me.
I may still cry- yes -but until the last tear has fallen, God, I know it has all been just a test
A test to prepare me for the next
A test to make me realize I'm truly blessed
These setbacks are just that: necessary to prepare me for the rest

I'm hurting so bad right now, you know
But I'm thanking you for whispering in my ear, "This too shall pass."
And now, I know
My spirit will be the same
I'm thanking you God for rescuing me every time I call out your name.

Written on 6/28/09